The Playlist

80s girl

  • Born to Run Bruce Springsteen
  • It's My Life Bon Jovi
  • Harvest Moon Neil Young
  • When The Stars Go Blue Ryan Adams
  • Friends Michael W. Smith
  • Brown Eyed Girl Van Morrison
  • Crazy Love Van Morrison
  • I'll Be - Acoustic Version Edwin McCain
  • Dear Younger Me MercyMe
  • Voice of Truth Casting Crowns
  • Hallelujah Rufus Wainwright
  • In the Sun Joseph Arthur
  • Photograph Ed Sheeran
  • Supermarket Flowers Ed Sheeran
  • Play It Again Luke Bryan
  • A Thousand Years Christina Perri
  • How to Save a Life The Fray
  • Where Does the Good Go Tegan and Sara
  • Keep Breathing Ingrid Michaelson
  • The Story Brandi Carlile
  • Rainbow Connection (Made Famous By Kermit the Frog) Toners
  • The Great Escape Patrick Watson
  • In Your Eyes Peter Gabriel
  • Boys Don't Cry [Single Version] The Cure
  • Close To Me - Remastered The Cure
  • Life Less Ordinary Carbon Leaf
  • Life Less Ordinary Carbon Leaf
  • Let Your Troubles Roll By Carbon Leaf

When all your tears dry.... Let your troubles roll by...

For over eighteen years I've been with those either working with dying patients, patients facing their own end of life, or families learning to let go of the physical presence of a loved one.  This is what I know for sure through my experiences, communication, connection and LOVE trumps all things.  I wanted to take this place to share details about myself that I wish I knew about those I lost:

 

My favorite color:  Yellow

My dream:  To become a television writer/producer - ultimately a writer of great stories.

Where I was born:  Emporia, Virginia

What states have I live in Virginia, New York City, North Carolina

Where have I traveled to Mexico, Spain, England, Italy

Childhood dream:  to become an actress

A life dream:  To travel to all the United States and get to know the locals

 

How do I hope I die:  With a chronic illness with hospice care in my early 80s

 

Life Desires / End of Life Wishes:

* To Live Boldly

* To create a legacy of helping individuals

* To be a writer

* I do not desire to be kept alive on machines / after 30 days of treatment, if I'm brain dead or not functioning at 85% of normal brain function - LET ME GO!

* I do not desire to be buried or have a permanent headstone for individuals to visit. I want to be cremated and my ashes spread:  Wallace Creek, Wilmington / Under the Brooklyn Bridge, NYC / Atlantic Beach, North Carolina

* I would like all my artwork to be divided between Gade, Zach, and Katie.   They can sell it or keep it. 

* If I have any type of money - I would like it to go to Meredith College to start a film school for girls.

* I do not care for a memorial service, but individuals desire one I would like it held at Winfree Memorial Baptist Church in Midlothian Virginia.

* If possible, I would like all viable organs donated to those who need them... All organs - Including eyes.

* If I have found a partner in love he/she will have complete control over my desires and wishes.  If I do not have a partner in life, Beth Paul should be a point person should I die before her - Heather Hopson - my best friend from high school should be my next of kin if my father or Beth are decreased prior to me.

 

"Let Your Troubles Roll By"

Love endures, it clings away
When asked to leave, it begs to stay
Like the perfect song, at imperfect times
It's the way the chords struck with the rhymes
So let your troubles roll by...

He knows he can help himself
He can tell by a look at the books on his shelf

And someone, somewhere loses her son
Before her own sunset is said and done

And she dreams of sunflowers bent-over
Frozen in snow, and thinks 'Colorado.. ?'
But then plays her life back in slow motion
To keep in touch with that raw emotion
In the night, crushed empty can
Olive Oyle is waiting for her man
To come in from the fight
That will change their life
'For good this time...'

When all of your tears dry, let your troubles roll by

Like New Year's Eve, tonight's underway
But tomorrow you'll wake up afraid of the day
'Cause underneath the scars of your broken dreams
An undone war still wages and stings
You fear the year will blow
Like a breeze through a rainbow
You swear it's there, but you can't grab a hold
So you sit and cry and wonder why, why...

When all of your tears dry, let your troubles roll by

So many cities and windows and lives
And through each one there's a soul that strives to survive
So pay no mind, my sorrow's fine
The day is a live and that's why I cry
It's a New Year's toast, grab your list to conspire
The last snake hissed as he was thrown in the fire
You've come far, and though you're far from the end
You don't mind where you are, cause you know where you've been

Like a culture vulture sprawled out on the floor
Like a dead devil sailor washed up on the shore
With nothing of note but the ole' Capt.'s coat
And a burning boat you just sank with your salty tears...

Carbon Leaf 

 

 

 

 

 

My Life Story

My Person

T & Me

Teresa is my PERSON.  She makes me BRAVE!  Lucky to call her my best friend, sister, cousin, a mother with no boundaries and the person who taught me to laugh at myself.

 

"Stand By Me"

When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No, I won't be afraid
Oh, I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand
Stand by me

So darlin', darlin'
Stand by me, oh, stand by me
Oh, stand, stand by me
Stand by me

If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
Or the mountain should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry
No, I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand
Stand by me

And darlin', darlin'
Stand by me, oh, stand by me
Oh, stand now, stand by me
Stand by me

Darlin', darlin'
Stand by me, oh, stand by me
Oh, stand now, stand by me
Stand by me
Whenever you're in trouble, won't you stand by me?
Oh, stand by me
Won't you stand now?
Oh, stand, stand by me

My Oldest High School Friend

Heather Hopson Thornton

I'm honored to call this person a dear friend for over 30 years.... 

 

"Friends"

Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
I can't believe the hopes He's granted
Means a chapter of your life is through

But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

And with the faith and love God's given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you live in
Is the strength that now you show

We'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gone
'Cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

And friends are friends forever
If the Lord's the Lord of them
And a friend will not say never
'Cause the welcome will not end
Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

To live as friends

Though it's hard to let you go
In the Father's hands we know
That a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

No a lifetime's not too long
To live as friends

 

MWS

Haven....

My gal..

This dog and the adventures, the hikes, the puddles, the play and the laughs shared can't be measured.

 

"Accidentally In Love"

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me
But I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Because everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love [x7]

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love
I'm in Love, I'm in Love
I'm in Love, I'm in Love
Accidentally [x2]

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love

Counting Crows

Eddie... My co-worker

The elephant in the room

17 years in hospice care expanded my heart, opened my mind and enhanced my humor during all minutes of the day even near death. 

Bridging the Gap .... between... the old life and the new life

I'm a writer

To call yourself a writer... you must write.

G -

Two Lives aren't enough

The boy, the friend, the creative, the husband, the father - equals one of my best friends in the world.

 


Play "Better Together"
on Amazon Music
"Better Together"

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams,
And they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs
With sepia-toned loving

Love is the answer.
At least for most of the questions in my heart.
Like: "Why are we here?", "And where do we go?",
"And how come it's so hard?".
It's not always easy,
And sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing:
It's always better when we're together

Mmm, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at them stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments
Just might find their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone
When the morning light sings and brings new things
For tomorrow night you see that they'll be gone too
Too many things I have to do

But if all of these dreams
Might find their way into my day-to-day scene
I'd be under the impression
I was somewhere in between
With only two
Just me and you
Not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be
We'll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeah, it's always better when we're together
Mmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

Mmm, mmm, mmm

I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,
You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're better together.

Jack Johnson

Winfree Memorial Church

The place that saved me

"Voice Of Truth"

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone
To the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again, "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win"

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a Sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again, "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win"

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me (Calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me

I will choose to listen and believe
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe the voice of truth
I will listen and believe

Because Jesus you are the voice of truth
And I will listen to you
You are...

My Family...

time

Sometimes we forget that friendship, cultivation, and respect creates the family of our dreams.

Crazy Friends to the End

Playing Laughing and the

We must laugh a lot in this life.  Yet, I think the most important laughter to attain in this life is a sense of humor concerning one's self.  Never take yourself too seriously.  Never stop playing.  Never stop learning.  Even as we edge toward the end, every day, remember to LIVE until that one last breath we all call - DEATH!

 

"Raise Your Glass"

[Verse 1]
Right, right, turn off the lights
We're gonna lose our minds tonight
What's the deal, yo?
I love when it's all too much
5 a.m. turn the radio up
Where's the rock 'n roll?

Party crasher, panty snatcher
Call me up if you're a gangsta
Don't be fancy, just get dancy
Why so serious?

[Chorus]
So raise your glass if you are wrong
In all the right ways, all my underdogs
We will never be, never be anything but loud
And nitty, gritty, dirty, little freaks
Won't you come on and come on and
Raise your glass!
Just come on and come on and
Raise your glass!

[Verse 2]
Slam, slam, oh hot damn
What part of a party don't you understand?
Wish you'd just freak out
(Freak out already)
Can't stop, coming in hot
I should be locked up right on the spot
It's so on right now
(It's so fucking on right now)

Party crasher, panty snatcher
Call me up if you're a gangsta
Don't be fancy, just get dancy
Why so serious?

[Chorus]
So raise your glass if you are wrong
In all the right ways, all my underdogs
We will never be, never be anything but loud
And nitty, gritty, dirty, little freaks
Won't you come on and come on and
Raise your glass!
Just come on and come on and
Raise your glass!
Won't you come on and come on and
Raise your glass!
Just come on and come on and
Raise your glass!

[Bridge]
Oh shit! My glass is empty
That sucks!

So if you're too school for cool
(I mean)
And you're treated like a fool
(You're treated like a fool)
You can choose to let it go
We can always, we can always party on our own

[Chorus]
So raise your (oh, fuck)
So raise your glass if you are wrong
In all the right ways, all my underdogs
We will never be, never be anything but loud
And nitty, gritty, dirty, little freaks

(So raise your glass if you are wrong)
So raise your glass if you are wrong
In all the right ways, all my underdogs
We will never be, never be anything but loud
And nitty, gritty, dirty, little freaks
Won't you come on and come on and
Raise your glass!
Just come on and come on and
Raise your glass!
Won't you come on and come on and
Raise your glass for me!
Just come on and come on and
Raise your glass for me!
For me

Pink

A Great Love Story

APPLE

My superhero pose... looks a lot like LOVE!

 

"Chances"

Chances are when said and done
Who'll be the lucky ones who make it all the way?
Though you say I could be your answer
Nothing lasts forever no matter how it feels today

Chances are we'll find a new equation
Chances roll away from me
Chances are all they hope to be

Don't get me wrong I'd never say never
'Cause though love can't change the weather
No act of God could pull me away from you

I'm just a realistic man, a bottle filled with shells and sand
Afraid to look beyond what I can lose when it comes to you
And though I'd see us through, yeah

Chances are we'll find two destinations
Chances roll away from me
Still chances are more than expectations
The possibilities over me

Eight to five or two to one, lay your money on the sun
Until you crash what have you done? Is there a better bet than love?
What you are is what you bring. You gotta cry before you sing

Chances, chances
Chances lost are hope's torn out pages
Maybe this time

Chances are we'll be the combination
Chances come and carry me
Chances are waiting to be taken, and I can see

Chances are the fascination
Chances won't escape from me
Chances are only what we make them and all I need

Five for Fighting

Peter Pan Lives

Remember to be a kid

"Tonight, Not Again"

The night.
She brushed her hands upon my flushed cheek
Smelled of childhood remnants of a dusty weeping willow
Clouds soothe, Shredded by the calico
Were oh so vast and quick as I was on my own now.

This time like every other time I believe that I never find
Another sweet little girl with sequined sea foam eyes
Ocean lapping voice smile coy as the brightest quiet span of sky
And I'm all alone again tonight not again, not again, not again.

And don't it feel allright. and don't it feel so nice. Lovely.

Still I'm unable to inhale all the riches
As I'm awkward as a wound on my bones
Still I've got cobblestone joints and plate glass points
As I'm all by myself tonight not again not againE

And don't it feel allright. and don't it feel so nice. Lovely.

Well if you should nervously break down
When its time for the shakedown would you take it
It's when you cry just a little but you laugh in the middle that you've made it
And don't it feel allright. and don't it feel so nice.
Lovely.

Say it again. Lovely. So lovely. to do it again
Again. Loving again. It's coming again.
Lovely.

Jason Mraz

Don't Wait!

The book ends of a great creation!

One Life... Live it Boldly!

My New York City...

Pre-9.11!

"Wind Beneath My Wings"
(from "Beaches" soundtrack)

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero?
You're everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?
You're everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Oh, the wind beneath my wings.
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.

Bette Midler

A new adventure

the next chapter

I’ve never placed much value in wondering about an afterlife… my concern was always this life. What would I do with it? How would I make my mark? I wanted to break new ground. I wanted to leave a legacy. I wanted my life, my brain, my existence to mean something. The thing I never really thought about tho, the thing that could not really wrap my brain around until now was … to do that, to be remembered, in order to leave something significant behind ... you have to leave. It has to come to an end… what will your life story tell about you? What stories do you hope your life tells?



"Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story"

[Washington:]
Let me tell you what I wish I'd known
When I was young and dreamed of glory
You have no control:

[Washington and Company:]
Who lives
Who dies
Who tells your story?

[Burr:]
President Jefferson:

[Jefferson:]
I'll give him this: his financial system is a work of genius
I couldn't undo it if I tried
And I tried

[Washington and Company:]
Who lives
Who dies
Who tells your story?

[Burr:]
President Madison:

[Madison:]
He took our country from bankruptcy to prosperity
I hate to admit it, but he doesn't get enough credit for all the credit he gave us

[Washington and Company:]
Who lives
Who dies
Who tells your story?

[Angelica:]
Every other founding father's story gets told
Every other founding father gets to grow old

[Burr:]
But when you're gone, who remembers your name?
Who keeps your flame?

[Burr and men (Angelica and women):]
Who tells your story?
(Who tells your story?)
Who tells your story? (Your story?)

[Women:]
Eliza

[Eliza:]
I put myself back in the narrative

[Women:]
Eliza

[Eliza:]
I stop wasting time on tears
I live another fifty years
It's not enough

[Company:]
Eliza

[Eliza:]
I interview every soldier who fought by your side

[Mulligan/Lafayette/Laurens:]
She tells our story

[Eliza:]
I try to make sense of your thousands of pages of writings
You really do write like you're running out of

[Eliza and Company:]
Time

[Eliza:]
I rely on

[Eliza and Angelica:]
Angelica

[Eliza:]
While she's alive

[Eliza and Angelica:]
We tell your story

[Eliza:]
She is buried in Trinity Church

[Eliza and Angelica:]
Near you

[Eliza:]
When I needed her most, she was right on

[Eliza and Company:]
Time

[Eliza:]
And I'm still not through
I ask myself, "What would you do if you had more?"

[Eliza and Company:]
Time

[Eliza:]
The Lord, in his kindness
He gives me what you always wanted
He gives me more

[Eliza and Company:]
Time

[Eliza:]
I raise funds in D.C. for the Washington Monument

[Washington:]
She tells my story

[Eliza:]
I speak out against slavery
You could have done so much more if you only had

[Eliza and Company:]
Time

[Eliza:]
And when my time is up, have I done enough?

[Eliza and Company:]
Will they tell our story?

[Eliza:]
Oh. Can I show you what I'm proudest of?

[Company:]
The orphanage

[Eliza:]
I established the first private orphanage in New York City

[Company:]
The orphanage

[Eliza:]
I help to raise hundreds of children
I get to see them growing up

[Company:]
The orphanage

[Eliza:]
In their eyes I see you, Alexander
I see you every

[Eliza and Company:]
Time

[Eliza:]
And when my time is up
Have I done enough?

[Eliza and Company:]
Will they tell my story?

[Eliza:]
Oh, I can't wait to see you again
It's only a matter of

[Eliza and Company:]
Time

[Company:]
Will they tell your story?
(Time…)
Who lives, who dies, who tells your story?
(Time…)
Will they tell your story?
(Time…)
Who lives, who dies
[Full Company:]
Who tells your story?

Hamilton

 

Only One Sister...

Happy days...

The younger years..